“God is my strong fortress”- God kept me safe for years even tho my faith in God was nearly absent. I am so blessed today. I walked thru life angry, disgruntled, and feeling confused. Kind of like roaming the desert for 31 years in a constant state of confusion. I always asked why me? Why did God give me such a self-destructive disease? I was asking the wrong why or looking at it from the wrong perspective. God gave me this disease because God knew I could handle it. We all have the inner strength to pursue greatness, I had to find God and put The Lord first in all my affairs.
Fear was my driving force to not do something. I had fear of rejection, failure, scrutiny. I had so much fear because I didn’t have faith in myself. God gave me the faith I needed until I could love myself using radical acceptance, prayer, and meditation.
“The trouble with us alcoholics was this: We demanded that the world give us happiness and peace of mind in just the particular order we wanted to get it-by the alcohol route. And we weren’t successful. But when we take time to find out some of the spiritual laws, and familiarize ourselves with them, and put them into practice, then we do get happiness and peace of mind. . . . There seem to be some rules that we have to follow, but happiness and peace of mind are always here, open and free to anyone.”
— DR. BOB AND THE GOOD OLDTIMERS, p. 308
The simplicity of the A.A. program teaches me that happiness isn’t something I can “demand.” It comes upon me quietly, while I serve others. In offering my hand to the newcomer or to someone who has relapsed, I find that my own sobriety has been recharged with indescribable gratitude and happiness.
Happiness comes from within you. Treat others with respect and work on your defects for happiness and wholeness.
As I sat down and opened up my folder of homework, it was a bit overwhelming. It felt like the first day of school again. I hated doing assignments in school, it gave me anxiety, and I would rush through projects to stamp them complete, and move onto the next. I was told in recovery it’s a marathon, not a sprint, but I love sprinting! So, before I started answering any questions on step one I told myself I have all the time in the world. No phone, no work, and limited TV. There was no excuse why I couldn’t take my time and do it thoroughly. The step one questions were primarily about my relationship with alcohol and how it affected my life. After doing the step one packet and rereading it I came to the conclusion that I was living to drink and drinking to die…….. There has to be a better way! Stay tuned for more.
The foundation of my metaphorical house was built on lies, self-sabotage, judgement, and avoidance. I didn’t love myself when I looked in the mirror. I wasn’t proud with myself. Will I ever? Yes! God willing I am in the process of rebuilding my foundation. One way I was able to stop drinking was through faith and radical acceptance. I am blessed to be given favor by my Higher Power and faith in myself. If you don’t believe you can then you are probably right. If your struggling don’t give up! Today could be the day your life changes for the better! No better day then The National Day of Prayer to start rebuilding your life. Prayer continues to strengthen my relationship with God and others. Thank you to everyone who never gave up on me, and saw something in me I couldn’t see in myself. 🙏
I was never pragmatic when making decisions. No planning or preparation needed, there was no time for that. With that thinking I was ill prepared and made decisions based on emotions rather than the facts. I needed to prepare everyday by praying and meditating. I had to make sure my foundation was solid, because if I build my life on a weak or false foundation the entire house will fall down. I have been blessed with favor from God. I was given a second chance to rebuild my life’s foundation based on faith, love, and wisdom.
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an award or privilege granted as a special honor or as an acknowledgment of merit.
I suffered for far to long. I allowed my pain to turn into suffering. Then the suffering turned into self-pity and self-sabotage. I was lost in addiction and I couldn’t find a way out. I use to hear of people finding faith and completing the impossible. Back then I didn’t have much faith, it was hard for me to be an active addict and believe in God simultaneously. I had to remove the alcohol and sugar to simplify my life. About a year and a half into recovery my Higher Power granted me understanding. He restored, supported, and strengthened my belief in Him and for that I am forever grateful.
It’s easier said then done to not worry about anything, but it is possible. I now understand there are areas of my life that I have full power over to fix and change. There are also parts of my life I can’t fix and that’s what I pray on. I ask God to give me the courage to change what I can, serenity to accept things I can’t change and the wisdom to know the difference. I don’t pray for material objects or money. I ask for serenity, courage, wisdom, empathy and understanding. We all have the willpower to change we just need to find our why. Also, don’t forget to say thank you!
Patience does not come easy to me. I’ve always embraced instant gratification and if I didn’t get it I would quit what I was doing. From losing weight to stop drinking I gave up to early. I’ve tried to lose weight and stop drinking before. What is different this time? Why am I finally getting it? This time I have faith in my Higher Power and most importantly faith in myself to continue this arduous, but well worth it path to contentment. Fix what you can and what you can’t fix pray on it and give it to your Higher Power. Don’t give up! Your blessings maybe right around the corner!
–Striving to become a better version of myself!
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assume as a fact; put forward as a basis of argument.
Even though we are sinners God still loves us. He sacrificed his only Son for our sins. I am not perfect and I am a sinner, but I can always do more to sin less and praise more. The power of love, wisdom, and self-improvement brings me closer to Jesus. He saved me and I am extremely grateful for being given favor. Now it’s time to pass the message on to others.
-Striving to become a better version of myself!
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an increase or revival after a period of little activity, popularity, or occurrence
For 20 years I walked through life in darkness because I chose to. I didn’t fully embrace faith and God. I would tippy toe into faith when I needed it, and only when I needed it. I’ve now learned I have to embrace my faith daily. Whether I am on good times or bad times my faith is stronger today because I have tried living life on my own and it has brought me to the darkest places. Now the light shines daily. Even when times get tough and the darkness looks near my faith in God let’s the light shine. My Higher Power teaches me to look for good even in the worst situations. I am confident that I can overcome the darkness and evil with my faith. I am so blessed for a second chance. 751 days strong 💪