For 20 years I walked through life in darkness because I chose to. I didn’t fully embrace faith and God. I would tippy toe into faith when I needed it, and only when I needed it. I’ve now learned I have to embrace my faith daily. Whether I am on good times or bad times my faith is stronger today because I have tried living life on my own and it has brought me to the darkest places. Now the light shines daily. Even when times get tough and the darkness looks near my faith in God let’s the light shine. My Higher Power teaches me to look for good even in the worst situations. I am confident that I can overcome the darkness and evil with my faith. I am so blessed for a second chance. 751 days strong 💪
I have a plethora of self-help books. About 1 year ago I started reading the Bible, now I don’t really need the self help books. The Bible is a one stop shop for me to learn and grow. On this day 2 years ago my life changed dramatically and I am so blessed for the continuing transformation. 🙏
I’ve always believed in treating others the way I’d like to be treated and helping others when I can. The only problem was when I was in active addiction I didn’t treat myself well at all and I was taking care of myself. Self-pity and self-sabotage engulfed me daily. I had to find faith in God until I could find the faith within me to overcome my short comings.
Fear fueled my addiction for over a decade. I feared everything and I didn’t have a healthy relationship with God. Now that I have God in my life it gives me the fortitude to keep moving forward despite any challenges put in front of me.
I am blessed and grateful to have God in my life. He had faith in me when I had zero faith in myself.
He has been granted a gift which amounts to a new state of consciousness and being.— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 107
Many of us in A.A. puzzle over what is a spiritual awakening. I tended to look for a miracle, something dramatic and earth-shattering. But what usually happens is that a sense of well-being, a feeling of peace, transforms us into a new level of awareness. That’s what happened to me. My insanity and inner turmoil disappeared and I entered into a new dimension of hope, love and peace. I think the degree to which I continue to experience this new dimension is in direct proportion to the sincerity, depth and devotion with which I practice the Twelve Steps of A.A.
If you stay sober long enough and work the 12-steps you will stop looking at the world through a myopic lens and you will start looking in the mirror, at least I started too. Some may think I’m still in active addiction beause I have changed, thats erroneous. I just keep my head down and do the work every single day. Now I am reaping the ultimate benefits of my labor.