Every time God tested me I ran and hid. I didn’t realize that God was testing me to build a stronger version of myself! Now when I am tested self-pity and self-sabotage are a thing of the past. I may not pass every test that is put in front of me, but I try to learn from each experience. Testing me has strengthened my character and faith in my Higher Power. Ultimately when tested if you “fail” fail forward and have faith that God is with you!
I didn’t wait for The Lord, He waited for me until He knew I was ready. I was broken, unnerved, and overflowing with self-pity. God lifted me up and strengthened me when I couldn’t manage life on my own. Now I proudly walk with my shoulders back and head high. Life is good!
“The trouble with us alcoholics was this: We demanded that the world give us happiness and peace of mind in just the particular order we wanted to get it-by the alcohol route. And we weren’t successful. But when we take time to find out some of the spiritual laws, and familiarize ourselves with them, and put them into practice, then we do get happiness and peace of mind. . . . There seem to be some rules that we have to follow, but happiness and peace of mind are always here, open and free to anyone.”
— DR. BOB AND THE GOOD OLDTIMERS, p. 308
The simplicity of the A.A. program teaches me that happiness isn’t something I can “demand.” It comes upon me quietly, while I serve others. In offering my hand to the newcomer or to someone who has relapsed, I find that my own sobriety has been recharged with indescribable gratitude and happiness.
Happiness comes from within you. Treat others with respect and work on your defects for happiness and wholeness.
I never really knew what a divine intervention was until February 28th 2017, more like I was to focused on my drinking to even care. That night I made the worst decision of my life, which now is the best thing that could have happened to me.
That night I chose to drive under the influence of alcohol. I was driving and hit a curb and then I hit a pole. No one was injured, thankfully. That next day I checked myself into rehab. After a decade of drinking this was my first attempt at going to an inpatient program. I had done outpatient and Detox programs with no success of my own doing.
Going to rehab changed my thinking. The 12 steps help me understand my character deficits and that it is up to me to make an effort to change my life. For so many years I’d place the blame on others, and never accepted ownership of my actions.
It was time for me to put down the magnifying glass and take out the mirror. To this day I still follow the 12-step principles. It made me realize I needed that divine intervention to get sober. It was my wake up call. I’m always trying to get a little better each day. If a hopeless drunk like me can get sober, so can you. We can recover! There is strength in numbers!