At the rehab center I was at we had to have steps 1, 2, and 3 done before we could be discharged. Each step had readings and questions you had to answer, along with writing your life story. When I wrote out my life story and put it on paper, it felt as if a small bit of weight had been lifted off my shoulders! My spirits were better and I felt positive about this whole “recovery” thing. So I went on and started doing my step 1 work. Step 1 that’s easy right? No! For 12 years I did want to admit I had a problem, because I was afraid of being labeled, judged, mad fun of. I was pent-up with shame and guilt. Ultimately I need to get humble and get honest to work through step 1. And I learned to implement humility and honesty in all my practices. Till next time….
On February 28th 2017 I had a divine intervention. After 14 years of being an alcoholic I got my first DUI. This event was an awakening to all the hurt I have caused others and all the hurt I had pent-up inside. On March 1st 2017 I entered the Princeton House. This will be my first time going to rehabilitation. I have gone to detox and IOPs, but never inpatient. My mind was so numb at this time that I can’t really say I felt much emotion. I guess I was still processing the whole situation. It took me a few days to get “clear-headed” I guess between the time off alcohol and the medications they were giving me I was starting to feel better. The Rehab I went to have a first responder program, which I did not know about prior to going to The Princeton House. Everyday first responders would get together for an hour and talk about addiction and our line of work. I felt comfortable in this group, it was reliving to know other people in my profession suffer with the same disease. This program helped me realize the work I needed to get done on myself. We were given assignments everyday. I focused my attention on step 1 and it was off to the races for me……
Thanks for joining me! On 03/01/2017 I made a decision to go to rehab and get help for my alcoholism. on 03/01/2018 I will be starting blog about how it is to be one year sober, and also pass on tools and tips I have learned over the past year. Stay Tuned!
Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton