The foundation of my metaphorical house was built on lies, self-sabotage, judgement, and avoidance. I didn’t love myself when I looked in the mirror. I wasn’t proud with myself. Will I ever? Yes! God willing I am in the process of rebuilding my foundation. One way I was able to stop drinking was through faith and radical acceptance. I am blessed to be given favor by my Higher Power and faith in myself. If you don’t believe you can then you are probably right. If your struggling don’t give up! Today could be the day your life changes for the better! No better day then The National Day of Prayer to start rebuilding your life. Prayer continues to strengthen my relationship with God and others. Thank you to everyone who never gave up on me, and saw something in me I couldn’t see in myself. 🙏
He has been granted a gift which amounts to a new state of consciousness and being.— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 107
Many of us in A.A. puzzle over what is a spiritual awakening. I tended to look for a miracle, something dramatic and earth-shattering. But what usually happens is that a sense of well-being, a feeling of peace, transforms us into a new level of awareness. That’s what happened to me. My insanity and inner turmoil disappeared and I entered into a new dimension of hope, love and peace. I think the degree to which I continue to experience this new dimension is in direct proportion to the sincerity, depth and devotion with which I practice the Twelve Steps of A.A.
If you stay sober long enough and work the 12-steps you will stop looking at the world through a myopic lens and you will start looking in the mirror, at least I started too. Some may think I’m still in active addiction beause I have changed, thats erroneous. I just keep my head down and do the work every single day. Now I am reaping the ultimate benefits of my labor.
Thanksgiving is the day where most people come together to eat a lot of food, drink a lot of alcohol, and go around the table saying what they are grateful for. Thanksgiving is a good reminder to be grateful for the little things in life. I need that reminder everyday because I am an addict.
Today, I can say I am grateful for being an addict. Addiction is hard and can be a daily struggle. God doesn’t choose just anyone to be an addict, but he chose me. Why would God give me such an awful and debilitating illness? God doesn’t give you more than you can handle. God gave the disease of addiction to me because my higher power knew I was up for the challenge and that I could manage my addiction. That is why I am grateful today. I am thankful that my God has so much confidence in me to overcome my addiction. Now it is time I help others overcome this terrible, but manageable disease.
So I guess it is safe to say I have Thanksgiving everyday minus all the food and alcohol!