He has been granted a gift which amounts to a new state of consciousness and being.— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 107
Many of us in A.A. puzzle over what is a spiritual awakening. I tended to look for a miracle, something dramatic and earth-shattering. But what usually happens is that a sense of well-being, a feeling of peace, transforms us into a new level of awareness. That’s what happened to me. My insanity and inner turmoil disappeared and I entered into a new dimension of hope, love and peace. I think the degree to which I continue to experience this new dimension is in direct proportion to the sincerity, depth and devotion with which I practice the Twelve Steps of A.A.
If you stay sober long enough and work the 12-steps you will stop looking at the world through a myopic lens and you will start looking in the mirror, at least I started too. Some may think I’m still in active addiction beause I have changed, thats erroneous. I just keep my head down and do the work every single day. Now I am reaping the ultimate benefits of my labor.
It’s in all of the us. We have the capability to do anything we put our minds too. It all depends on how bad do you want it? I had to adopt this mindset during my recovery. In the beginning of recovery the shame, guilt, resentments all flooded in. I used those emotions to fuel the fire to push through the pain, and because of that I haven’t had a drink in 425 days. For a hopeless drunk like me, thats profound. If i can do it, you can do it! We can do it! Be humble, be honest, and be the hardest working person in the room! Have a great week!
I never really knew what a divine intervention was until February 28th 2017, more like I was to focused on my drinking to even care. That night I made the worst decision of my life, which now is the best thing that could have happened to me.
That night I chose to drive under the influence of alcohol. I was driving and hit a curb and then I hit a pole. No one was injured, thankfully. That next day I checked myself into rehab. After a decade of drinking this was my first attempt at going to an inpatient program. I had done outpatient and Detox programs with no success of my own doing.
Going to rehab changed my thinking. The 12 steps help me understand my character deficits and that it is up to me to make an effort to change my life. For so many years I’d place the blame on others, and never accepted ownership of my actions.
It was time for me to put down the magnifying glass and take out the mirror. To this day I still follow the 12-step principles. It made me realize I needed that divine intervention to get sober. It was my wake up call. I’m always trying to get a little better each day. If a hopeless drunk like me can get sober, so can you. We can recover! There is strength in numbers!