Step One Continued….

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As I sat down and opened up my folder of homework, it was a bit overwhelming. It felt like the first day of school again. I hated doing assignments in school, it gave me anxiety, and I would rush through projects to stamp them complete, and move onto the next. I was told in recovery it’s a marathon, not a sprint, but I love sprinting! So, before I started answering any questions on step one I told myself I have all the time in the world. No phone, no work, and limited TV. There was no excuse why I couldn’t take my time and do it thoroughly. The step one questions were primarily about my relationship with alcohol and how it affected my life. After doing the step one packet and rereading it I came to the conclusion that I was living to drink and drinking to die…….. There has to be a better way! Stay tuned for more.

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Step One

At the rehab center I was at we  had to have steps 1, 2, and 3 done before we could be discharged. Each step had readings and questions you had to answer, along with writing your life story. When I wrote out my life story and put it on paper, it felt as if a small bit of weight had been lifted off my shoulders! My spirits were better and I felt positive about this whole “recovery” thing. So I went on and started doing my step 1 work. Step 1 that’s easy right? No! For 12 years I did want to admit I had a problem, because I was afraid of being labeled, judged, mad fun of.  I was pent-up with shame and guilt. Ultimately I need to get humble and get honest to work through step 1. And I learned to implement  humility and honesty in all my practices. Till next time….

The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me! On 03/01/2017 I made a decision to go to rehab and get help for my alcoholism. on 03/01/2018 I will be starting blog about how it is to be one year sober, and also pass on tools and tips I have learned over the past year. Stay Tuned!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton

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